Steph's Shitass Diary!

hellooooooo

Sat, 07 Feb 2004 12:32:05 GMT

hey hey hey bin a while since i bin online..bin way too busy.erm loads has happened since last spoke on eya..bin bout two weeks since i been online n cor rememba everythin that has bin said so may miss sum out. main events i will mention tho lol..erm..wel last saturday i arranged to meet chris at merryhill at the cinemas n i wor me baggy jeans with the pink stripes down side, me black tight tank top thing n me vans n shit like that n all me hair was straight n all ace n shit n then..horror of horrors...i fukin tripped up jus b4 i met him, smack on the floor by the cinema and had mud allll over me arse n jacket n stuff...cuda died.luckily he day see tho lol.phew.so he saw me and after he stopped laffin we both decided it wud be best if we skipped the cinema n went bk to mine so i cud get changed n wash the mud off me,so we went to mine and after i got changed we lay on sofa watchin pirates of the caribbean..OUR FILM lol..was so funny cus chris sed 'wop on the old pirates' so i did n then he sed 'bloodyhell we may aswel have gd ol' simpleplan on aswel' cus they r our band lol..was funny to me anyhow.he was sittin up n i was like sprawled on the sofa n then he lukd all uncomfortable so i told him whether he was ok n he pretended to get mad n sed 'no goddamit ur lying down, im gona too' so he lay down behind me n we were holdin hands thru the film..was so ace n then after the film we 'canoodled' on the sofa for a few hours lol n then me folks came bk so we quickly got up n luckily dad n mom n chris get on rele well so i was relieved but then me n chris went out for a lil walk b4 his dad picked him up n we were in this lil alleyway thing jus chattin n huggin cus it was freezin n it was ace.n he gave me one of his bangles..well i nicked off with it n then forgot to giv it him bk lol he got it now tho :( ah well..i'll retrieve it agen lol.anyhow his dad picked him up at bout half ten so i went in n watched titanic..i was in a 'lets watch sad films to cry by' mood you see.then saw him agen monday which was ace n erm yeh thats enuff tlk of him for now lol.bin two weeks and 3days today.woo lol.
then went it snowed on thursday we all had the day off so went sledgin down gd ol' sainsburys with me, natay, linzi, charlie, jo, hayley, tess, simo n his 'crew', sean n his mrs n al her m8s, si n stef...the wholesum gangsum lol.was ace.but then linzi n charlie n jo fucked off to go watch a film n left us which pissed me off but me n linzi ent bin gettin on for ages so dno y i was surprised.she jus does stuff to piss me off now n i know shes gona read this n i doe giv a flyin fuck no more.
we argues yesterday agen...cus she bin lyin bout this stupid lil pointless pathetic thing which is too stupid and little and pointless and pathetic to mention so i ay gonna but we fell out over this stupid lil thing..all cus she lied..but if you know me then you will KNOW that if there is one thing in the whole world i hate its liars...and she lied to me..to my face and it rele aggravated me so i told her to fockoff cus i swear i was gona blow my lid with her..god its so pathetic over wot it is.grrr made me all mad agen..i jus HATE liars and then she had the cheek to slag me off to nat while i was there, callin me the liar so i told her to fockoff and that was that.then to make matters worse tilley thought it wud be funny n start tappin me hed with his elbow which aggravated me more so i screwed at him n then stacie (his gf) screwed at him and they r now no longer speakin..i swear if they split im gona feel so fukin bad lol.they been together bout 1year now lol.nah they woe..i hope.
then had health n social which was ace, were singin real old sad love songs with nat n kirst n 3oe n stace n recallin sad films then doin peter kay impressions hehehe...was so funny.then they invited me out with them for a pissup..but i cudnt be arsed so i day go.
chris went n saw BLINK playin last nite the jammy git but he rung me up every time they played a new song which was awesome n he got me a pressie from there..kinda wonderin wot it is lol,tried gettin stuff signed for me too but blink had all fucked off lol so cudnt.ah well...i was jus touched he actually got me sumat.dno wot to get him for vals day :S stil ay got nuthin.god lol.
but that bout it..well all the fun bits anyhow n stuff that i actually care bout.
i jus cor believe linz lied to me outright to my face n she KNEW she was in the wrong cus i went over n tried sortin it n she was tellin me to keep my vpice down as her n becki had sorted it...well if she had nothin to worry bout she wudnt have told me to keep it down wud she?n she kept dismissin wot i had to say n i HATE bein branded a liar n that is basically wot she did, becks believes me anyhow cus it ay the first time we have had to discuss wot either one of us has sed to linz.im gettin fedup of it now.i thought i was her best mate but she doe seem fussed over us not speakin so fuck knows...college will be great now, we r in all the same classes, doin the exact same things..im jus rele affected by this, which shows i care bout her, i mean i luv her to bits n stuff jus she lied to me n that hurts.it was over sumat sooooo weedy n gay n lil tho.awww madness.
anyhow im gona get goin now, seein me chrissywiddles in a seccypoos so gota go get redy..lets hope i dnt fall over this time lol.
try n speak soon if i am not busy
bye de byes
xXx

(how i was feelin yesterday..) Mixed emotions...

Fri, 23 Jan 2004 22:34:37 GMT

well i missed out on writing me entry yesterday cus i went to linzi's n then wen i got bk chris was online n quite a few peeps were tlkin to me so didnt have chance to write in eya.
but basically yesterday was ace apart from the latter part of it...so i was at school all happy n stuff cus i was havin a larf n then on the night me n linzibaby had drama rehearsals (if i ay sed b4, we r both BIG parts in this play unlike sum ppl..ahem amy ahem!!) so we went there n left earlier than expected cus we r bad mofo's n then walkin bk linz tells me that becky fukin slater has told her that i sed that sam (drummer from riley) is a minga which kinda shocked her cus i always told her he was gdlookin n its her mate more than mine so im guessin kinda offended her wen beki told her this....anyhow its a loada bollox cus i never sed it so i was rele quite pissed off bout that..had a word with her today but i wil tlk bout that later...wow muz has jus cum on..anydoodle...erm...so yeh erm me n linz went to mine but then i realised i didnt have my key n it was rainin n no one was in so we went to linzis with me stil quite pissed off so i guess i werent that gd to be around at first...but then i cheered up the more i forgot bout it and then we went online n chatted to me chrissybabes for a bit..btw im goin out with him now.been 3 days today..woo lol.anyways we spoke to him a bit then we got tlkin bout online diarys...i forget how and i tell her i have one so linz is all curious and i tel her the address but not my name cus then i realise all the nasty shit i put bout her in me last entry so i begged her not to look for me and she sed she cudnt promise me that cus it got her all curious..anyways to cut a long story short she finds it and reads wot i put...so i was a little tense lol cus i day know wot her reaction was gona be but she was fine with it cus she now knows how i feel and she now knows wot anoys me lol even tho it ay annoyin jus me havin pmt but im stil glad that she saw it.made me feel a right bitch tho afterwards cus i had a rite laff with her at hers n we am tlkin as we used to agen so it is all dandy..and me n me chrissbabes were tlkin too n i was all loved up n stuff so im ok now.
goin bk to the bulshitter beki thing..i asked her why she sed that and she denied it so i think her and linz may be havin words altho i ent too sure on that one...spoke to chris ealrier but he has had band practice since 2 (yup their school finishes at 2 on a friday..jammy bastards!)and now he is out agen at this swimmin place or sumat with a loada mates so im jus waitin for him to text meeee...*sigh*
goin out with gemzietoodle n sazzybaby n kim(gr) and lilvik n sum others tomoz to maccies insted of meetin chris..woo lol. nah it shud be alrite..got me sazzy n me gemzie for company so i wil survive.
omg omg omg lmfao mrs.meredith spanked this other teachers arse today and sed rele provocatively 'see you later' and winked...me n kirst n nat n 3oe pissed ourselves...so fukin funny..then mrs.bonsor came in and she gave her a bear hug!! lmao...i was pissin meself.
anyways i cnt think of no more to write at the mo, and me arm is rele hurtin...lmao linz 'if you like pina calada..' we did a funny vid to that last nite...oh and if any of u know 'born to handjive' from grease the movie, we were goin mad at this lil dance routine to that and we day video it!!dayum!
anyways im gona get goin cus hoops n muz r stressin n im not replyin so i'll write soon.
bye bye
xXx

hey hey hey im back!

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 20:30:32 GMT

wel hi u guys lol (wow gone all american there) i know its been a while since i last wrote but im lil miss popular so havent had time to cum on the net at all.
saturday i was at me irish nan n gramps n on the night went out with all me irish cousins n got stoned which was fun lol..made a fire and kept ringin chris n he wud say 'hi' n then i wud say 'yeh bye' n i was pissin meself..i dnt think he knows it was me cus he ent sed nuffin lol.
then sunday me n gem went n saw justin, hopin to see dizzy rascal n jamelia but ooh...my fukin luck...they werent there!so we had this twat called fefe dobson on n she was miming n actin like michael jackson n gem kept shoutin abuse at her lol like 'fukin avrilwannabe!!' n stuff like that so we got sum funny looks lol.was ace tho,me yed hurt next day tho.
then on monday i was practising my singin with sean for the prom, yes apparently i sound like 'gwen stefani' lmfao n i gota sing sum songs at the prom with the dams (thats the name of sean n hoops n kiddas n 'superstars' band..there ive mentioned u! lol) n me n sean r doin a duet with running by no doubt...such an ace song.no way do i sound like gwen tho..shes a legend i so luv her lol, dress sense and sense of humour and all...she me idol lol.
also singin real old 50's songs aswel lol n doin them slightly rockier cus we r a greeb band n thats wot we r best at lol.
went out then on the nite with chris n may i jus say he lukd mighty fine!he had his hair all ace..still jet black lol n he had his lost prophets hoody on n baggy jeans n everythin n sum bangles which he never usually wears n he has THE tom delonge tattoo on his hand in the EXACT place!u know i think he is jus doin stuff to annoy me lol, i mean i sed i wanted to dye me hair black, so he dus, then i sed that i wanted a the star tattoo like tom delonges either on me back or arm or spine of me back or by my bellybutton piercin so it wil luk all ace so he has it dun!!im jus gona do it anyways to annoy him muhahaha lol.so he lukd all sexy n stuff n it was cus he was goin to r.cafe to see his mates band play so i went with him n it was an awesome night!met all his mates n wen i introduced myself they were like 'ooooh so YOUR stef are you??'which kinda freaked me out cus now im scared of wot he has sed bout me lol. but was a wkd night!
then tuesday was me lil sisters birthday so spent a bit of time with her to show her wot a gd big sis i am lol n then went out with hoops n sean n we saw chris so i was all happy lol n then sean got all arsy n chris was sposed to be goin to cinnies with all his m8s to watch sumat so we departed :( but stil had a laff with sean n hoops!
been signin everyones leavers books at the minute, omg kirsty hipkiss hu i always thought didnt like me, sed she was gona miss me cus im like one of the 4 people hu r goin to stourbridge college, everyone else is goin to halesowen so was a bit tearful lol.jus finished writin sarah websters n it took me 5 pages!!god ive had a laff with all of them, im kinda lucky cus im semi greeb semi trendie..more greeb now tho i guess n so i get on with everyone n im gona miss so many peeps...stil got me hoops boi tho :D n linzi baby n i know i wil stay in touch with natay cus she is goin to king eds so that is only like next door to our college..much meetin up lol.
n nat gater is goin to our college aswel so i shud b alrite..she told me she wud miss me most other day..so weird lol..everyone bein real nice to me..strange.makes me feel popular n i rele hope i dont sound bigheaded now lol.
btw thanku hooferdoofer lol for sayin u spotted riley!!i know the drummer!!!yeeeey!!!and sazzybaby let me know wen u can cum to r.cafe me darlin.
was sposed to go to r.cafe tonite but linz went all funny wi me cus nicki n el n hoops n sean asked me to go...she feel out with nick a while ago even tho they used to be like BEST mates n she expects me not to speak to her now...grrr.i asked her to go with me cus i know she luvs it wen we go in the mosh pit n stuff but she sed she day wana...only cus she has been hangin round with charlie n charlie is a trendie..so linz is ditchin us now wen we walk bk n stuff n shes a die hard greeb herself..everyone knows that but i think she feels embarrassed hangin round with us lot walkin home now cus charlie doesnt approve..god its not as of we havea disease..jus a different taste in music n clothes..god...annoyin..anyways i ent gone now cus i rele cba to get changed so linz is rubbin it in..biatch lol.we jus ent gettin on at the mo..ah well.
anyways im gona go now cus chris is stressin cus i ent tlkin n im writin essay lol.
speak soon
bye xXx

P.s LMAO luk at wot chris jus showed me..aw i luv him lol.

U lafed wen u stole my girlfrend,i cried all thru that weekend,but gues wot,thats alright,cus hey dude,i fuked ur mom last nite!! says:
this is from our net site. du u think this is the right order 2 hav band n du u think ne ov it sounds saft?

U lafed wen u stole my girlfrend,i cried all thru that weekend,but gues wot,thats alright,cus hey dude,i fuked ur mom last nite!! says:
ADAM (Adma) - Lead guitar, Piano, music writer, partial manager and Vocals (if they let him)

JAMES (Fish) - Lead Vocalist, Rhythm guitar, lyricist

TOM (Ashmore or to a lucky few "shmor") - Bassist, Vocals

CHRIS (Swampy) - Drums and IN HIS OWN WORDS "The sexy one" we will be holding a VOTE on this later on in the year

!!Go Riley!!

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 20:55:32 GMT

omg omg omg!my mates band Riley have been signed by the same ppl hu signed coldplay and if anyone hu reads this has windows media player...luk at the adverts at the top that constantly change..and u wil see riley there. im their official roadie now along with linzi n her bro chris and they have alredy hit american n australia and now hopin for success ova here..i cant believe it tho cus like sam the drummer..he is my neighbour ffs!! i like speak to that guy and soon im gona be the envy of sooo many gals cus he is a bit of a hot one.lol
btw gem i think u shud be called lexis cus sounds ace and only two days now!! oh oh oh and i have a pic of sonia and the rest of them and loadsa clippits of hoop and me rippin piss outa our german teacher (he really is a german tho) and sonia...we did the 'sonia what u lukin at' thing and recorded it so now u can piss urself even more!!!
aww talkin to me chrissywiddles and i think hes a lil pissed off that my ex's band are doin really well cus hes ent signed yet and i think he thinks that i think hes band is shit but they rawk only i am happi for riley cus me n sam used to go out and we r stil quite close n i was jus happi for him that all..ah well.
seein chris monday yay..bin like so long since i last saw him..wel was last nite but still lol.luv him loaaads!
wow his band r playin soon at the rock cafe!!yey!!sumtime in march so methinks i wil get a little group goin as always..think i wil invite me sis n her pallywallys too cus sazzbaby n gemzitoodles r always sayin they wana go cus it seems like a laff n it is the best nite of ur life i swear!play such kikass musaic!!!! lol
anways im gona go now cus chattin to chris n linz bout important issues n cnt think of nuthin else to say...hmm..
riley yey!!!wow..plz look peeps lol.
bye bye xXx

lmao CHURCH WORSHIPOR!!!!

Thu, 15 Jan 2004 20:59:26 GMT

lmao wel today we had german n i was gona record me and hoops cheekin sonia and her sayin (in silly voice) 'u jus called me ova?' but i didnt bring me bleedin fone so that was that idea out the window *sigh* will do it tomoz for u gemzitoodles tho!
anyways me n daniella n hooper were jus doin our work for once and mr.baker (head of german) cums in and asks hooper outside..bout 15minutes later hooper cums in pissin hisself n we ask him why he was wanted n he sed 'i am a bullier and a tormentor to sonia and kirsty and i am to have no contact with them' which made me piss meself cus he ses jakshit to kirst...none of us do its jus cus i smacked her one..we jus rip it outa sonia lol.
anyways then daniella is sent out and then it cums to my turn..and mr.baker says all this stuff..apparently about 6 people have gone to him and told him i constantly throw nasty comments at kirsty..which ent tru at all its sonia but o well. and i asked him wot i am supossed to have sed..and he sed 'well kirsty believes you have called her a fat bitch, (which shocked me cumin outa a teachers mouth lol) fishlips, beatles barnet, chubchub and a church worshippor' which made me piss myself cus i remember hoop sayin 'as if u jus swore smit..ent u a church goer?u jesuslover u'
basically at the end of it all i admitted i called her a bitch but that was all i called her(yes i no i was lyin lol but otherwise i wud have had my prefect took off me which i day want cus thats the only gd thing goin in my personal statement!) and mr.baker believed me and hoop and daniella and jus told us to forget bout it which is pretty ace...aw i luv mr.baker now lol.
omg hoop has bin writing bout me in english apparently (yes hoop i know ur readin this u lil shite lol..luv ya rele) cus the piece of paper he was writin on to vernals (me other mateypoos)and mr.avis the coffeelover saw it and was commenting on it in english. basically hoop wants vernals and kidda (other mateypoos hu is wkd on drums!!lol kidda i no ur gona read this too..monkeyboiiii lol) to get girlfriends and was askin them each individually hu they wud 'have a piece of' outof the girls in year 11 and apparently hoop sed 'wot bout gd ol steve-o?' (its wot he calls me) and they both sed 'ar id have a piece of her' n then apparently hoops was writin a bit bout me n kida n verns reckon that hoops fancies me but i dnt..i jus reckon we're jus thought of like that cus we am best mates..but we do not fancy eachother..we had ppl thinkin that b4 and people STILL think hoops has hots for me jus cus he asked me to prom..wel so did dave clayton and U kidda and U vernals..does that mean u want a piece??randy gets lol.
anyways im gona go now cus chrissybabes on fone n i cnt concentrate..aww i think we r goin out now peeps lol.
bye bye xXx

P.S Gem...3days chuckywoodles!!hell yehhh!

chris is such a naughty boi!

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 20:48:55 GMT

wel text me chrissybabes earlier today and he has been sent home early for lampin this lad!omg the reason is so weird tho..it was cus this freak kid was tekin pics on his cam of chris' girl mate...i find that kinda weird cus if sumone tuk a pic of my ass n hoop was there he wudnt lamp them for takin pics even if i told him too..he wud tel em to get it off n probs shout at him but he wudnt lamp them so chris must really like this girl which has kinda got on my tits a bit lol..gohd im a jelous bitch!
linzipoodles told me today that she likes chris a lot...i dno wether that means fancy aswel but she only met him once n she keeps sayin 'aw n wen we chat online...we chat for hours man..hes so ace i luv him' n im like hands off biatch..nah i know she only sayin it to wind me up lol.
hoops is gona read this in a sec n told me to mention him..hey hoops u GIIIRLLLL lol only jkin love ya really! tomoz u HAVE to have another awesome pic with me cus our pics are awesome n i need sum more funny messages on my sound thing too lol.
wel had me health n social exam today..lasted one and a half hours and oh my god its the easiest exam i have ever dun in my life...and im on a higher paper aswel so god knows wot the foundation one is like..it was like i was in primary school agen cus like they gave you a list of options for ur answer...there were questions like:

Anna is 14 years of age and has three brothers.what is the relationship she shares with her brothers?is it:
a)family?
b)friendship?
or
c)intimate/sexual relationship?

i mean how easy is that??mind u i bet sum sik peeps have put answer c...lol i know nat gater did..silly mare she thought it was the mock paper cus she was away wen we had them but it was the real gcse...wot a gorb.
teehee me n hoops r laffin bout kirsty smit..teehee.
anyways im goin now.
bye bye xXx

sorry lol

Tue, 13 Jan 2004 21:35:33 GMT

jus thought i would apologise on the mistakes all the way through that entry. its cus i am so pissed off lol and in a real angry mood and was rushin everythin. sos lol.
happier now tho cus tlkin to chrissybabes! yey

GrRrRrRrRrRrRrRrrrr Teachers!!!!!!!

Tue, 13 Jan 2004 21:29:11 GMT

hey peeps.wel todya was 'orrible!grr wel it was gd cus of me sisters b'day but bad cus i kept gettin sent out for doin jakshit n it really annoyed me..really werent my day at all. first off, in maths i get sent out for laughin so i was out all lesson whilst everyone else was doin coursework that was HAD to be done today, the final day, otherwise we would not get marked on it.and i fukin missed it so wen i got bk in the classroom at the end of the lesson mr.mills told me to meet him at dinner and i said i couldn't cus i had to go home n he fukin flipped so i sed 'FOCK THIS' n stormed out..hes tellin the head of maths department and i am to have a meetin with the anger management team lmao.only jus been took off their list...ah well.
then in german i was callin SONIA (lol gem) cus i needed her tipex cus hoop wrote all ova me folder agen n i needed to get it off so i kept shoutin her n she ignored me so i thought screw it n walked over n got her tipex..then (GEMMA THIS IS YOUR FAULT!!!!LOL) i was gona take a pic of her for gem cus weneva i tell her bout wot i do to sonia she pisses herself so i was gona take a pic but she stil ignored me so i asked her she was ignorin me and fukin fat greasy kirsty hu nobody cares about stands up and ses 'shy dont u jus fokin leave her alone?fockoff she dont wana tlk to ya!' so i was like gobsmacked n i sed 'er it has fuckall to do with you so i suggest you butt out!' n she sed 'o fockoff ya dikhed' n by now hoop n daniella n everyone is gobsmacked that she retaliated cus she is one of the freaks hu everyone cheeks n usually she never ses anythin bk so i sed 'hi my name is kirsty and im a big fat heffa with a greasy barnet and fish lips' n mr.richtor sends me out!!
so im there waitin outside for him to speak to me, and he comes out and tells me that for the past TWO MONTHS kirsty has been staying behind after the lesson n tellin him that i constantly torment her and threaten her and i have now been labelled a bully! and honestly it ent even her i cheek its sonia...ask gemma lol. so mr.richtor bollocked me like so bad and i had had enough by now and he says 'i suggest you leave poor kirsty alone now because if you dont young lady i am not puttin you in the exam' so i walk in and look at kirsty n her and sonia point and laff...which jus focked me right off! hoops sed 'doe stand for it steve-o'(its wot he calls me lol) so i say 'oh i ent gonna' n walk over to kirsty, get her by the scruff of the neck and say 'you fockin fat bitch' and then slap her full throttle across the face, and the best bit about it is...nothin has been dun about it!!haha!!i ent bothered anyhow..im sooooo pissed at her...shes scared of me now lol.but seriously she got right on my tits and i couldnt take it no more...lol hoop sed it was like a clip from a fighting movie...that lesson was full of fights tho...ryan nock (jude as we all call him) and foxy had a fight in there aswell today which was so ace, foxy went flyin!we were all singin 'hey jude' by the beatles lol..was so funny.
got in a way better mood wen i got home tho..cus chris rung me and asked how i was and told me to get my ass online so we chatted n chatted n twas ace...hes put more cred on fone agen now so we r textin agen..yey lol. got our band on now too..woo yeh.
bye bye
xXx

p.s Gemzitoodles only 5 days!

exam weren't that bad..i guess!

Mon, 12 Jan 2004 21:34:12 GMT

omg before i say anythin else, look at chris' name..i asked him why it was like this n he sed:

If u want 2 luv me, then darlin dont refrain.Or il just end up walkin, in the cold november rain says:
cus its a rokin song n reminds me of u.it bout u.

so i was like hmmm he is goin off me then lol.dayum.nah he ent lol we jus bin tlkin n its all gravy!(no i dno y i sed that either cus wen that song was out it was shite n me re-singin it n usin it as slang is not gd!)
lmao i jus ask gd ol linzi baby how her short break was n she sed this:
And its times like these that I miss you most, remembering when we were so close says:
a swan cum up to thje patio door n i opened the door wide and it came in, attacked my mum n pooed on the floo

i found it highly amusin..she is now sendin me a pic of the swan subject n i am pissin meself at it cus theres this one lil duck with its hed pokin into the pic...lmao its so funny! ah well...
i really dno wot to write today as im rather tired.gem wil be happy as i ent wrote an essay yaylol.
oooh i have finally spoken to me sazzybaby!she is alive lol..missed her for a bit there...ah well all is calm now.
wel im gona get goin now cus im stuck for words..toe mada!
bye xXx

wish me luck for me shitass exams!!

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 21:08:00 GMT

wel yesterday i was al depressin n shit in my entry bout 'how i feel' n 'oh no wot am i going to do poor lickle me' n stuff but then straight after chris got on the old blower to me and really cheered me up. thats what i like bout chris, he knows how it is, he knows im takin things slow cus of how things fucked up with dan n he is so kool with that..anyone else wud be like 'screw u biatch' but he ent...aww he sed 'look stef i know its hard for you but i need you to know that i will be here for you whatever and i wont treat you bad..u can trust me' n i was like 'aww ask me out' lol. its so weird, all me m8s like him hu have seen him, linz sed hes 'fit and adorable' lmao and CHARLOTTE hu usually h8s anythin to do with me thinks hes fit even tho hes a skater n shes a die hard trendie n sarah n natay n hoop boi think hes ace..but im not sure wether i wana be his guuurlfriiiend...hmm. nah i do, lol jus got another txt off him. its weird i get all like 'aw do i want him?' n stuff, then i see him or get a text off him where hes always cheerin me up n im like 'what am i waiting for'...havent been able to txt him that much today tho cus been studyin alll day for me big fockoff proper no-going-back maths gcse exam tomorrow..why the hell is it sooo early?goddam school! mom stressed at me today aswel cus i had to fill in my application form for college n i forgot wether it was a bteq or an a level i was sposed to take n now insted of takin a bteq im taking three a levels n dance and drama and music...they all seem really raving so lookin forward to em..me linzibaby n hoop boi are doin music too so shud be awesome if we r all in same group which i spose we wil be cus they sed they wil try to fit us in with our buddys yeeey! linz is actually doin ALL my subjects at college so got her 247 yeeey!
oooh i know wot im gettin for me din dins tomoz...a tuna and salad mayo baguette..i swear the school baguettes are so goddam delish...probs have rat meat in them or sumthin or one of the ladies has spat in it or sumthin but stil guuud lol.nah i know the dinnerladies by name cus im a good customer from them in the snack bar n they wudnt do a thing like that to their steffybaby...wud they?? i doe care anyhow i need me food...gohd put on a half a stone since crimbo n the spots are jus awful..im not a spotty kinda gurl but OMG they luk like little craters on my goddam face!grr man i h8 my face..sigh why was i given the face of a slapped arse??tell me god ...WHYYYYYY????? lol
k im dun with the self pity now.aw wow chris is watchin 'our film'lol pirates of the carribean..our film cus we r always sayin stuff outa it lol wen we r in a jakass mood and cus he luvs keira knightley n i luv johnny depp!!*dribbles* lol.plus really badly reminds me of him n him of me..wow lol.n our song is any simpleplan songs ESPECIALLY i'd do anything!cus he sed the words to that are how he feels...lil cheesy but sweet lol.
wow sum crazy film is on downsters..i can hear spoooky music..probs batman or sumat lol but gota go chek..i BET YOU ALL THE MONEY IN THE WORLD gem is gona stress at the size of this ntry lol.
anyways i gona go now
bye xXx

Another night with him...but im always wanting you!

Sat, 10 Jan 2004 21:57:33 GMT

hey peeps.wel today was kinda groovy wiv gemzitoodles.had a laff but happy was a lil arsey n gappy was ill so there ya go.they wnt to gd ol' aldi n left me n gem at home n apparently EVERYONE went uptown so we missed out there lol, we jus fell asleep watchin the barber shop n then loadsa 'two guys, a girl and a pizza place'.
me n gem had massiv chat yesterday bout our exes n she was tellin me that she saw murray yesterday n so we got tlkin bout how me n murray were n i still miss him a bit..i ent as bad as i was b4 but stil think about him an awful lot. the song 'all of this' by blink reminds me of him..hence the subject of this entry lol cus chris is everythin i cud ever want, hes funny and attractive and ace and likes me an awful lot too but he ent murray. u cant blame me tho, me n dan were together for like ten and a half months so cant blame me lol.
nah i do like chris n i do wana make a go of it, maybe then i wil finally get over dan that way? i dont know...but like they say 'the first cut is the deepest' and he was me first like serious relationship so im bound to be like this. he dnt help wen he tlks to me bout how ace we were together and all the good times, like wen we went for a romantic meal for my birthday and all we could talk about was the little old man that we spotted cumin into the restaraunt and how he was jus bout small enuff to fit in my pocket and that we were gona stash him away n take him home n have him live in a shoe n stuff...god that was a year ago now..*sigh*
anyways enough lol cus it wil jus get me all upset bout it agen n i dont want another night of dreamin of him..only make me worse. i AM gona date chris n we ARE gonna be happy and there will be NO MORE TALK bout murray lol. hmm...easy to say but jus doin it now lol.
we did have such a laugh tho and dan is like the nicest lad i know...def. best relationship so far. ah well..shutup now stef lol.
anyways i really dont know wot to tlk bout now cus dan is on my mind n cant think of nout else so...bye lol
xXx

happy happy joy joy!!

Fri, 09 Jan 2004 22:02:50 GMT

wel today was splendiforous!was a fab day, got looooads more pics on the gooo on me fone n loadsa nu recordings on there too!they r all funkydory!
got hanky n his bands album today aswel..they have dun copys of the darkness..but with swear words n much faster lol..so ace n only cost me 5p insted of 2 quid cus he asked me to buy it after din dins so didnt have any money left.really gd tho, hopefully playin at rock cafe soon.
was weird without me linzi baby today, jammy get gone on her hols which means she dont have to take the maths gcse exam till tuesday!*sigh* no rest for the wicked.
hahahah did i mention i tuk gr8 pics today..and even sum of NEELAM!!!lmao gem...and her real chep shoes..her shoes r like so chep..fallin apart lol.
methinks kim dnt like me..jus bin in a big convo n she was all funny wi me...1st she ses 'im gona go no one is tlkin to me' so i sed 'HEY KIM' n she sed 'gooooooohhhhd kkkkkkkkk'...i swear to god im gona slap her one of these days..really gets on me tits..shes all me me me..weneva anyone else has a problem she dnt wana know..n i know sumone is gona read this n show her n i cudnt giv a flyin fuck at a rolling doughnut really cus thats how i feel n i ent two faced...if im gona say sumthin bout sumone i wil say it to their face...and she annoys me!plus she dont even luk like fukin avril!anybody else feel this way?lol.probs not..probs gona get all this h8 mail now..ah well..im over it lol.
i jus realised i ent spoke to saz in yonks..where me sazzybaby gone??? lol aw hopefully hear from her soon.yey!
wel chrisytoodles is at gay toms b'day party tonite, i cudnt go cus jus cum bk from cinnies with the rest of the greeb gang n i made 'arrangements' for that ages ago...so ya no..lol.
so now hes takin ages to text me n its annoyin lol.get to see him monday yay..might be seein him tomoz actually up mezza after seein me gemzietoodle at happy n gappys...which will be nice lol...nah we shud have a laff..usually do wen we are together anyhow.
anyways im gona go now cus im really tryin not to write such long essays lol, must be cus my life is like sooo fulfilling!...hmmmm yeh lol.
does anyone other than me sis read this anyhow?plz let me know lol as im curious!
bye bye xXx

oooooh the borednessssss

Thu, 08 Jan 2004 20:48:54 GMT

hey hey hey ppl.erm today was okish, went kinda slow n i had had enuff by the end of it but was alrite i spose.tomoz wil be better cus i got me hoops boi wi me n in german so we can take the mick outa our teachers bald hed..hehe...god i need to grow up.hes stil with caz..bless lol.
hahaha well stacie (the one with the tin ring..luk at last entry) has been given a new nickname by gd ol' ryan nock...he sed he doesn't like her cus weneva she is out with us she always gets her 'spotty boobs' out lmao..so we keep tellin her to get her spottys out n she has no idea wot we r on bout.tee hee..agen need to grow up. he also cheeks her teeth cus she has two brown teeth at the the front so he calls her (behind her bk cus he scardy boi) 'browntoast teeth girl' which me n seany n hoop boi found highly amusing. i really dont think it was her day today tho as her '£100 diamond ring' off tilley has broke!!!hah....she was jus standin there n the 'stones' popped out one by one..was so funny...me nearly wet meself..teehee.
wopped me phone out in maths today and recorded half the lesson..sounds funny cus mr.lynch has a go at me thru it for 'repeatedly having your phone out' but i told him i was usin the calculator on it n the saft punk believed me! silly get!
oooooooh my chrissy widdly baby has cum online but not really speakin to him as im doin this..woopsytoodles lol. speakin to gemalina tho n discussin a certain sumone...basically ginga charlie wants to be her bud but i told her that if she wanted to be her m8 she wud be forever lookin for her as she wud forever be behind a wall..tee hee.
me n gem found it highly amusin anyhow :p ooooh 9 days till justin (only lookin forward to seein dizzy rascal lol not liking justin at the mo) and then i got me blinkybabes to look forward to! sooo excited by that...linz has got me a ticket to see incubus (sigh) dnt really wana go as their only song i like is 'i miss you' and their nu one...but i promised i wud go so guess i have to lol.
OH MY GOHD MY ENTRIES ARE TOO LONG MAAAAAN! wow im a crazy mofo! gem told me not to do em so long but ah wel screw it...tippsylardle..sos i have no idea y i put that.
me n sean n charlie n nat walked bk tonite..not that many as normal but it was cool..i was bein a madhed n takin loadsa stoopid fotos on me fone n sean found it 'so immature'...ses the one datin a 13yr old! gohd he annoys me so bad..n to think we were once sooo close (lol gem!) he was rippin it outa me hair today..sayin 'y have u put black permanent marker in ur hair?' so i replied with 'the same reason as to why u put curlers in urs!'...then he walked off n i sed 'n stop eatin carrots!ur beginning to luk like one!' cus he has orange coloured skin n is ginger...he has his grown real long, well tom delong length n he bums tom delonge ALMOST as bad as me but not quite lol..n wnts his hair, only problem is tom ent ginger n ent curly! so luks lil silly really..like ronald macdonald..ah nevermind.
oooh got sum more funky pics of hoop bio n hanky n atto n the greeb gang on the old fone..i luv them all so much..they r so ace..apparently nobody went to rock cafe in the end anyhow so didnt miss out really, hoops saw his missus tho!lol.
god this is gettin long now i think i better stop...n i have so much to tlk bout..nvm hey, gemzi wil only moan at me for the length lol (her brain cant absorb it all!) lolol only jkin gem luv ya really!
k i really am gona go now cus the old chrissy boi is stressin..god worse than a girl! lol.
byedebyes xXx

lar dar tiddly ar!

Wed, 07 Jan 2004 21:04:54 GMT

wel got up pretty late today cus i was so tired txtin me chrissybabes till 3 in the mornin!aw i luv him so much!he ent asked me bk out yet tho...hope he ent given up lol.
saw hoops n gave him a massiv hug cus he has finally got together with caaaz pritchaaard from redhillll school hu works in woolwoooorths! he has liked her for ages n ages n he finally got the guts to ask her out last nite n she sed yes! so was wel chuffed for him.i was the first person he told aswel..bless his heart...then i told me sis so she is second person ever in the whole world to know...wow groovy.
saw me seanyboi today n tried chattin to him but felt weird wen he was with emily...dno y jus did.we ent as close as we used to be anymore n i dno y..sigh...mind u we have jus tlked n tlked bout blink n tom delonge n how fit he is n wether i shud dye my hair fully black now i have black streaks n bout penguins...so we're kinda stil close...closer to me hoops boi tho..me luvs him.
had to stopo behind after school cus of drama rehearsals..im a pretty big part in play im sooo happi...sean n hoops n dan n ham n nat n claire n charlie n jonah n the wholesum gangsum are cumin to watch so wel excited!!
me n linzibaby are together thru out play too which is so ace n we didnt get home till half 6!
so was too late for the kikass r.cafe..sigh...blink night aswel...boo hoo :(
aw bless sean n si n stef n the gang didnt go cus i didnt!pretty shocked by that lol but sean sed wudnt be the same..nicki ent gona go anyways even tho it was all arranged for her b'day cus not many ppl up to it. hoop boi is goin to see his lovagirl bless his heart,so happi for him.
wel im gona go now cus im fed up of writing random shit bout nothin so gonna shutup lol.
bye xXx

MaDhEaD!?!?!?!

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 20:57:09 GMT

well got up today at 7 which i am really surprised bout considerin i usually get up at 2 and i got woken up by a real scary alarm system lol.really scared me, i got up, ran to the bedroom light n switched on me light i was so scared...n im 16 now..sad mare lol.
saw me hoops boi today n tuk loadsa pics of him on me cam...so funny lol the faces he was pullin...got sum mock gcse results aswel n i got so far...a b, 3 c's n 2d's which is pretty darn good really so im quite happi bout that n so r me mommy n daddy so im in their good books agen..yay.
still lookin for jobs n i found one...i have to work 2-4hours week which ent bad...and its £6 quid an hour so quite a bit of money i spose...but its workin on a pik n mix stool...wooo lol. so i thought boat to that!
wel mom n dad are currently clearin away the crimbo stuff n im sposed to be helpin but i sed boat to that aswel so i ay.
im such a lazy get!
insted im writin this n textin chrissybaby n suckin on a smoothie...its coconut n pineapple..so dam delicious!
omg u never gues hu im speakin to...only the guy hu broke my heart n its took bout 8 months to get over him...too painful to say the name lolol!
its so weird cus we always talk about the good old times n how we were n he always ses he misses me...its so very strange lol.but i AM over him now..i think lol...nah i am.
cus i looooove chrissybaby! u know i think im gona go out with him next time he asks me...may aswel jus giv it a gooo....only got one life so may aswel stop fuckin about.
i ent txted him bk for like ages tho..woopsitoodle..aw wel i wil in a sec.
yey got me drama tomoz so get to see linzitoodles n sheepysean n clicky dave n nat n daniella n the blitzin crew.
hahaha charlotte has no m8s..hahaha kirsty went up to her n sed 'stop bullshittin bout me u fat ginga biatch!' n pushed her over..hahah she deserves it tho...shes such a bitch.
n hahaha shes goin out with this gorb now hu left our skool last year called dave n she stopped at his house other day (well...his flat lol) and she had cum on while she was stoppin there so she cudnt shag him..but that ent the worst biy..she came thru her jeans cus she didnt bring no towels n she stayed there TWO WHOLE DAYS without any towels or tampons and with the same clothes on! how sik is that??shes an ugly fat biatch anyhow..ask anyone hu knows her.
hahaha stacie's face was orange today n the "£100 diamond ring" tilley got her was actually worth a tenner from argos...it luks as fake as anythin n it dnt matter bout the price, i mean its thr thought that counts...but..omg u dnt lie about a piece of tin like that..luks shite!
ah well.
well ive stopped me bitchin now so i wil write agen tomoz...if i dnt go to the rock cafe..might tho cus its a blink 182 night...basically playin me fave band allllll night so wil probs go..try n write on eya tho first cus im so goddam good lol.
bye xXx

parents!you cant beat them......which is a shame!

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 16:46:29 GMT

grr dont ya mom n dad do ya nut in??they screw at me jus cus i got up today at 3'o clock and hav dun jak n cus i stil ent got a job!bloody gorbs! nvm lol.
aw i cudnt see me chrissy boi today cus he is at skewel n we dnt have drama tonite so wnt see him *sigh* But im stil textin me which is the next best thing..hmm...
i got a really bad neck now u know..hurts so bad..hm yar im such an exciting person to be around!
oh oh oh for those of you who know one of my best mates gay tom, (called that cus he is gay lol) wel on new years eve he went with this lad he really likes..twice! n none of his mates at skool know he is gay, apart from me n chris (cus i told chris teehee) but they all found out bout him today apparently n they r all cool with it! if he went to my skool he'd be ded!there ya go tho lol.
wel i thought i would have loads to say today cus im in a really talkative mood but i ent, which is bit sad lol cus there ent been ONE entry yet which has been fun or excitin or even funny..god i suck lol.
didnt see linz or natay or seany or em or hoop boi today either!how sad n lonely do i feel? lol.
o well guess i will see them all tomoz...really dont wana go bk to the routine of school...i h8 it sooo much!sux so bad...spesh wen ur doin ur gcse's.
waitin for a text off chris but nooo he stil ent replied..probs packin to go to his moms..which means i wnt be seein him for TWO WHOLE DAYS!!!nooooooooooooooooo!o wel im over it now lol.
ooooh lil vik has jus cum online so methinks i'll chat to her in a sec...no one else is on tho..man i feel so aloooone lol.
anyways better go cus i ent sposed to be on eya at the mo..sposed to be 'babysitting' the shitheads..woohoo for me,.
try n write tomoz if i have time in my 'hectic life' i wish!
oooh lil vik is chattin yay i have a frend!!yay.
anyways,
bye xXx

well its been a while...but im back!!

Sun, 04 Jan 2004 21:27:57 GMT

hey hey ppl..if anyone actually reads this lol.this is my second ever entry..man im shite at this whole diary writing thing lol.only got up a few hours ago so not a lot to say there but yesterday kicked serious ass!me n sexy chris n linzibaby went to cinnies n watched freaky friday n me n chris were makin out so linz went n sat infront of us lol bless her heart...then wen that finished linzi n chris came bk to mine cus house was empty n we watched more funny dvds which was a laugh..chris then started tickling me cus he knows how ticklish i am n i was like 'get off now it tickles' n wen he did i was like 'no u twat ur sposed to continue' lol.omg he saw mine n linzi's funny video.(the kings of leon one) n he pissed hisself n called us freaks..was so funny.n he did a sean n jus had a blitz round me room.cheeky get!aw wow he has dyed his hair black now n he luks well nice!mmmm...sos im drooling lol.aw i love him so much.he asked me out agen yesterday but i tld him i needed time to think..well u know that old sayin, treat em mean, keep em keen! n it seems to be workin cus he has been textin me alll day n has spent £30 on me alone in less than 4 days!! aw sexy bastard man lol.
then he had to go bout half nine so we kissed goodbye infront of his dad lmao n me n linz popped down to chinkys n got few bottles of archers n wkd n went bk to mine n watched more dvds n pissed ourselves at nothin lol.
it was a realllly good day tho.
*sigh* i dnt wana go bk to skool tuesday, had too much fun n i have gcse exams AS SOON AS i get bk.nvm hey.
hopefully i wil blag me way thru em..fingers crossed.
wel that was my day in short yesterday n i dno wot else to write..wudnt have wrote nothin if it werent for gemmzietoodles remindin me, man im such badass lol....hmm..yar!
hahaha gem-the headache thing! hahaha
sos.
erm...so..
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bye xXx